~ farewell HCH...=(

e last day.. 20052005..good day.. no?
was super busy e whole day! can't believe e last day @ HCH wld b e xiongest day of all.... teaching session @ 6am, chapel, doctor's morning meeting, photo taking.. running arn collecting e 5 corrected versions by e various 5 departments.. trying 2 locate missing copies...n IT WAS SO HOT!!!! wat practically sweating e whole day.... n i dun sweat tt easily.. bleah.. it's only e beginning of e heat....
in e end, only 2 copies were corrected - paeds (Koshy, Benjamin & Dr Indira fr CMC Vellore) n family med (Lydia & Laji)... e rest...well... eh hem... were deemed to be 'perfect'.... ya...
slack man... n we had to pia @ e last min to make quite alot of changes for e paeds doses.

then rushed over 2 Dr jeff's place 2 upload final input of photos burn e photos into cd..... took up 2 cds.. almost max e 2nd one too.. made copies for each of us n also for Koshy, Kripa, Harry n Dr Sabu... had debrief w Dr Jeff...
hugged e kids for e last time....sigh.. Conner was patting us when he hugged us... sigh...
will miss them lots...

went over to mary's place 4 a while n chatted abit, passed her some of my salvars n also shoes.. hee.. but my bag is still full to e brim!!!! even w all e food gone n all!!!! ARGH~!!!!! JL man... not like i bought super alot of stuff lor!!!! ok mayb i bought abit. but not ALOT leh.... arghhhhhhh...
gave her 1 of e v few keychains we brought along w us.. n also got Sema 2 come over n gave him one... cos they were closest 2 us.... n jaspreet...we gave him b4 he left... mary & sema were quite happy tt we mentioned their names first when we were giving our farewell/thank you speech @ chapel in e morning.. cos they say they dun usu hear their names remembered up in front of everyone... hee... Mark named e Mess members.. heh... n they said it sounded abit like attendance taking in e morning.. kekeke...
will miss them.. pray tt they'll b ok.. not easy for them in a new env too.. being fr e northeast is actually quite a diff part of india.. it's more chinese in many ways...life, looks, culture..n language... there r super alot of dialects man..

mary's going thru a tough time... n we got quite close in e last couple of wks.. tink wat she's going thru now is sthg i mite not b able to take if God were 2 put me thru. i'ld prob go crazy...then again, He puts u thru trials tt u can handle... n i'm thankful 4 my time here...

experienced quite abit of things... tho din really study or brush up clinical skills or did anything work related... bleah...
feel like coming 2 india 2 help e kids here might really be my calling...
have always had tt though @ e back of my mind..to help kids in less developeed area.. but never anything tt specific as to which region or area.. but these 6 wks here opened my eyes to c kids in so many varied situations & environments...in wards, hospitals, good families 2 villages, slums & beggers... everytime a kid comes up 2 me to beg 4 money... i'll cringe...
we were told not to give any money 2 any beggers 2 all. or else e whole clan will descend upon u n devour u ... but i can give 2 1 or 2 no? but how much is enough? mayb for 1 or 2 meals.. but e kid will prob never grow up 2 c adulthood... times lidat i feel totally loss n helpless.. jus looking @ e child staring @ me w hopeful eyes... my heart jus aches like mad n i feel like crying then n there.. each & every time.
now when i see any begger child approachin from far off, i jus shut my eyes tight.. & hope tt he passes by quickly.... sigh...

i digress...
back 2 topic...

went also 2 koshy & lydia's place for a little while 2... felt abit sad saying goodbye 2 them.. left my measuring tape w Koshy cos he was super fascinated n delighted w it.. like it's his new toy... heh... it's a nice tape... =P

been checking e mailbox everyday n i still haven received e package from liting yet!!!! sigh.. wanted to give e crosses 2 each person myself.. now i cant... sigh.. jus hafta leave behind some 'instructions'.. sian man... hope they like it as much as i do...thanks liting!

went 2 buy ice cream for e farewell @ e Mess... went late for dinner 2 cos then e usual (aka "old foggies" =P would b there...) arnd 830+9+pm.. then e Vellore kids wld b gone.. but 2 my horror, they were still there!!!! i was quite irritated actually... cos they dun give me good vibes... n they r rowdy n frankly quite unfriendly... or mayb it's a groupie thing.. i duno... even some of e usual mess ppl start 2 turn up later for dinner jus so as 2 avoid them @ e mess.. then again.. when they r there, there's not much space in it.. so mite as well wait till they r gone first b4 eating...

anyway, they were there.. n they took part in e usual farewell tingy... jus quite diff.. abit draggy n all.. but when everyone was singing e 'Friends r friends forever'... i began 2 tear... sigh... it was jus sad... bleah.... but din cry ler...

dun feel ready 2 leave.. if only i could have stayed longer... going back in e future wld b diff... but He has His plans.. HCH will always have a special place in my heart... e ppl especially... it was a family.. will miss all of them...

din really sleep last nite... slept like 1.5 hr.. cos writing little 'love letters' to koshy, lydia n e Mess members... will miss them all loads... e fun n laughter n e warmth.. n will miss e kiddos too, conner, cosette, cameron, ammlu.. bleah.. tot all of them how to ^5 hahaha.... e rest r tryign to unteach them tt n trying 2 teach ^10 n ^1.. ahh wt nonsense =PppP
din really get good sleep this past week too.. cos lz either talked in her sleep/grinded her teeth/snore.. bleah.. there was 1 nite all 3 were combined! wah.. i was super zonked out n grouchy e next day cos i keep waking up to e teeth grinding.. bleah!!!! terrible....!!!!!!
must be e stress of HCH.. but no stress there wat!! belah... hope touring will b better...

left this morning @ arn 630am... Dr Jeff, Mary n Bina's mom came to send us off... mary will really miss us man... will miss her big hugz!...

slept 1.5 hrs on n off in e taxi on e way to Saharanpur to catch e train 2 Delhi...
then waited abt 1 hr @ e train station.. bag was super heavy!!!! n my back was jus dying.. n my bag was abit off-center too!!! arhg have to repack!!!!! darnED!!!!
mad rush up e train when it came.. cos gotta get onto it b4 it zoomed off in like 3 mins... belah... n had to rush 2 try to find palce 2 put luggage.. MAN!!! e ppl here are fast!!! duno how they do it..

slept on e 3hr train ride... then when we reached New Delhi....
WAH KAO E CROWD!!!! excatly like on tv man!!!! PETRIFYING!!!!! macham no place to squeeze thru one lor!!!! i instinctly stuck my hand out to lz n we held on tightly 2 each other.. n also clinging on to Mark's bag while he bravely plunged himself headlong into e crowd... up e bridge, across it.. to e parking area... n quickly negotiated a taxi price .. n there we were in e taxi.. sweating like crazy.. stuck in a jam rite @ e entrance of e train station... man.. e heat!!!!

now we r @ YMCA... e internet here is cheaper.. haha

saw my hp bill report.. sheesh... my pockets.... i'm getting full thickness burns man...
i'm starting to miss Mess food.. weird huh? after complaining abt it hahaha... oh well.. my mind is playing tricks on me man.. bleah...
shall go now.. have lunch ahahah. haven had breakfast or lunch..it's 3.43pm now.. n lz jus ordered delivery i tink... suppose 2 arrive in 40 mins..

meeting zareema & Kara @ 5pm for debrief. ahah now hafta adjust back 2 reality... sigh...
hahah she has a complex haah i wonder wat.. hmmm.. kekeke...
i wanna go back to HCH leh... nice little cosy place w nice ppl n env. hehe... my tiredness erupting sporadically..
so fast.. 6 wks ago i was in Delhi.. not knowing wat to expect for e next 6 weeks.. now i jus wanna go back to tt 6 wks... heh..

life goes on...