home....
home!!! mix of emotions...
i miss home,.. sis, bro, parents, bed, aircon, comfort....
but it's like returning to a guilded cage, a jail, claustrophobic... sucking out my life...
will jus have to cling on to whatever breathe of life-sustaining fresh air out from my photos.
heh...
miss HCH..
tears welled up in my eyes when e plane took off from IGI airport in Delhi.. no idea why..it's my mind playing w me... it's weird.. never wld i have dreamed of feeling such a mix of emotions... esp on leaving india..
it's towering mountains, beautiful skies, serene rivers coursing through e countryside...e fireflies n glowworms.. e stars in e night sky... n e strolls n e chats in e cool night breeze..
my ideal orphanage spot.. e kids...ppl @ e mess....e Drs... oh how i miss them so...
my haven of refuge.... one day i shall return...
we 4 (tunnren, jing jing, mark n me) were jus sitting @ e nice big spacious transit area in thailand airport (so diff fr e transit area on e way to india!!! - dark n dreary..)
n we were actually kinda dreading coming home.. not e family part.. but e sch part.. e hospital part...
after having exposure to such warm, friendly, condusive, encouraging and motivating learning environment,.. e env back here is so harsh, crude, competitive, throat-wringing, life-sucking life tt bleeds one dry ....
will hafta brace ourselves for reverse culture shock...e plentitude of choices..e variety..e madness..
thank goodness for the One everlasting source =) He has His plans... showed me, taught me, moulded me, strengthened me, guided me n comforted me...
He sent me there for a reason. after goin thru all e nonsense n all...He placed me there.. His love really noes no boundaries... n He keeps reminding me time and again.. n always i jus feel i'm not tt good for Him. i mus strive for so much more.. but He noes our limits. our needs. trust in Him...
thankful also for His nurture of Alphacamp.. the wonders He shows me each year.. e growing tt i c in each n every comm member of diff years.. e heartache i feel for others... tho i'm not part of it anymore... tho i try to b as much as i can... it's like watching my own child grow n blossom..slowly but steadily n surely each year...each step of the way... we r jus threads in His tapestry of life...
so paiseh for taking so long @ e duty free-shop on arrival @ e airport... heh..made all the families wait so long.. was like 2nd last to claim baggage from e conveyor.. *sheepish*
=P
such a shopaholic hahah...quite terrible..
feel guilty.. massive internal bleed from all e cost...keke....
india..it's another world out there... a place where everyone shld go n learn abt life. experience e pits... n one can truely appreciate e comforts we have... e simplicity,e down to earth attitude...e non-overbearing mannerism..e warmth n basic way of leading a human life.
once in a lifetime. a lesson to b remembered always n to carry w me thru rest of my life.
i miss home,.. sis, bro, parents, bed, aircon, comfort....
but it's like returning to a guilded cage, a jail, claustrophobic... sucking out my life...
will jus have to cling on to whatever breathe of life-sustaining fresh air out from my photos.
heh...
miss HCH..
tears welled up in my eyes when e plane took off from IGI airport in Delhi.. no idea why..it's my mind playing w me... it's weird.. never wld i have dreamed of feeling such a mix of emotions... esp on leaving india..
it's towering mountains, beautiful skies, serene rivers coursing through e countryside...e fireflies n glowworms.. e stars in e night sky... n e strolls n e chats in e cool night breeze..
my ideal orphanage spot.. e kids...ppl @ e mess....e Drs... oh how i miss them so...
my haven of refuge.... one day i shall return...
we 4 (tunnren, jing jing, mark n me) were jus sitting @ e nice big spacious transit area in thailand airport (so diff fr e transit area on e way to india!!! - dark n dreary..)
n we were actually kinda dreading coming home.. not e family part.. but e sch part.. e hospital part...
after having exposure to such warm, friendly, condusive, encouraging and motivating learning environment,.. e env back here is so harsh, crude, competitive, throat-wringing, life-sucking life tt bleeds one dry ....
will hafta brace ourselves for reverse culture shock...e plentitude of choices..e variety..e madness..
thank goodness for the One everlasting source =) He has His plans... showed me, taught me, moulded me, strengthened me, guided me n comforted me...
He sent me there for a reason. after goin thru all e nonsense n all...He placed me there.. His love really noes no boundaries... n He keeps reminding me time and again.. n always i jus feel i'm not tt good for Him. i mus strive for so much more.. but He noes our limits. our needs. trust in Him...
thankful also for His nurture of Alphacamp.. the wonders He shows me each year.. e growing tt i c in each n every comm member of diff years.. e heartache i feel for others... tho i'm not part of it anymore... tho i try to b as much as i can... it's like watching my own child grow n blossom..slowly but steadily n surely each year...each step of the way... we r jus threads in His tapestry of life...
so paiseh for taking so long @ e duty free-shop on arrival @ e airport... heh..made all the families wait so long.. was like 2nd last to claim baggage from e conveyor.. *sheepish*
=P
such a shopaholic hahah...quite terrible..
feel guilty.. massive internal bleed from all e cost...keke....
india..it's another world out there... a place where everyone shld go n learn abt life. experience e pits... n one can truely appreciate e comforts we have... e simplicity,e down to earth attitude...e non-overbearing mannerism..e warmth n basic way of leading a human life.
once in a lifetime. a lesson to b remembered always n to carry w me thru rest of my life.
posted by ~xin~ at 9:04 AM
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