~xin~

nonsense

2005-08-07T06:48:00.000-07:00

this is terrible.
haven been studying for the past 6 weeks. sleep n sleep n sleep. like some clockwork specifically made to sleep. anytime, anywhere, jus give me 5 mins to close my eyes and i'm gone.
this is too much. n i still feel tired after i wake up. even if i have more than enough rest already.
this is simply too much.

argh! starting to feel stress, but there's massive inertia to do anything cos i'm feeling tired all the time.
sense of impending doom. dread waking up everyday.
jus wanan escape, but there's no where to run to.

slipping away every second...into this abyss of self-worthlessness...
this is terrible.. i mus find my way back. quickly... i need divine intervention. keep my head straight. keep my sanity intact.

i tink i jus found a source of my dying soul.. nothing motivates me now. i need God to lead me.
i need to follow Him.

home....

2005-06-04T09:04:00.000-07:00

home!!! mix of emotions...
i miss home,.. sis, bro, parents, bed, aircon, comfort....
but it's like returning to a guilded cage, a jail, claustrophobic... sucking out my life...
will jus have to cling on to whatever breathe of life-sustaining fresh air out from my photos.
heh...

miss HCH..

tears welled up in my eyes when e plane took off from IGI airport in Delhi.. no idea why..it's my mind playing w me... it's weird.. never wld i have dreamed of feeling such a mix of emotions... esp on leaving india..
it's towering mountains, beautiful skies, serene rivers coursing through e countryside...e fireflies n glowworms.. e stars in e night sky... n e strolls n e chats in e cool night breeze..
my ideal orphanage spot.. e kids...ppl @ e mess....e Drs... oh how i miss them so...
my haven of refuge.... one day i shall return...

we 4 (tunnren, jing jing, mark n me) were jus sitting @ e nice big spacious transit area in thailand airport (so diff fr e transit area on e way to india!!! - dark n dreary..)
n we were actually kinda dreading coming home.. not e family part.. but e sch part.. e hospital part...
after having exposure to such warm, friendly, condusive, encouraging and motivating learning environment,.. e env back here is so harsh, crude, competitive, throat-wringing, life-sucking life tt bleeds one dry ....
will hafta brace ourselves for reverse culture shock...e plentitude of choices..e variety..e madness..
thank goodness for the One everlasting source =) He has His plans... showed me, taught me, moulded me, strengthened me, guided me n comforted me...
He sent me there for a reason. after goin thru all e nonsense n all...He placed me there.. His love really noes no boundaries... n He keeps reminding me time and again.. n always i jus feel i'm not tt good for Him. i mus strive for so much more.. but He noes our limits. our needs. trust in Him...

thankful also for His nurture of Alphacamp.. the wonders He shows me each year.. e growing tt i c in each n every comm member of diff years.. e heartache i feel for others... tho i'm not part of it anymore... tho i try to b as much as i can... it's like watching my own child grow n blossom..slowly but steadily n surely each year...each step of the way... we r jus threads in His tapestry of life...

so paiseh for taking so long @ e duty free-shop on arrival @ e airport... heh..made all the families wait so long.. was like 2nd last to claim baggage from e conveyor.. *sheepish*
=P

such a shopaholic hahah...quite terrible..
feel guilty.. massive internal bleed from all e cost...keke....

india..it's another world out there... a place where everyone shld go n learn abt life. experience e pits... n one can truely appreciate e comforts we have... e simplicity,e down to earth attitude...e non-overbearing mannerism..e warmth n basic way of leading a human life.

once in a lifetime. a lesson to b remembered always n to carry w me thru rest of my life.

~LaSt dAy~

2005-06-01T20:18:00.000-07:00

woke up @ 545am this morning!!!!! cos e sun was shining in thru e curtains!!! cld feel e heat...
laallalalal~ it's our last day here!!! going home tom!!!1 wheeee~~~!!!!
found some hidden money amongst my belongings.. hee hee.. means i can shop abit more!!! not tt i've not spent alot already... =PpPpPPpppp
gonna go the Delhi bookstore later.. get some med books. hope they r much much cheaper... then can box them up n check in as a piece of luggage...

wow...it's e last day.. finally... seems like i'm (most of us) have been waiting for this day to come... going home tom.. 2 months jus fly past....
jus no contact w anyone..2 months away from everything...isolation....
duno if i'll get hit badly by reverse culture shock when i get back...
pray for a smooth transition...adapting to here was relatively fast... most tings aren't tt much different.. jus gotta get use to e heat, e dirt n e smell...n e food..seems like alot huh...one whole package...
i guess it's easy to get use to new tings..cos it's exciting n interesting ... n cos there's always e old stuff to fall back on if anything goes wrong...
happiness...is when u haf little needs in life...then u'll b very happy...
=) each passing day...it's a blessing...

gonna sleep n eat n try to stay healthy n keep fit when i get back. hahahah
my health plan hasn't been working .. not for 4 years hahaha.. super jialatz manz... hehehhee....
no harm trying lar. =P c how long it'll last...

oh Jazzy (jaspreet) big bro called last nite!!!! wat a surprise!!!!! =) now tt he handed in his thesis.. can relax BIG time man!!!! luckily all 3 of us in e same room. so everyone gotta talk to him =) baby's coming in august!!! whee!!! lookin forward to seeing all those pictures!! =)

n i got sms from ah hong!! hahah.. another surprise!!!!! =P
feel so loved man... heee...
k lar. gotta go...
books time!! ahhaha must try to convert back to book worm hahaha...curb by shopaholic mode...bleahz.....
=((((

shop till drop...literally...

2005-05-29T05:46:00.000-07:00

jaipur is crazy.. it's really crazy.. there are so many streets of shopping!!!! all interlinked n crosslinked n hyperlinked... u get e idea...
it's shopping madness... e biggest drawback is tt it's jus so super duper dirty... then again.. there's no clean place here in india except in ppl's homes...but it's more dirty here..
it's quite disgusting @ times.. like e public toilets arnd every corner.. it's so public n foul-smelling..hold my breathe everytime we near a corner...but it's only here in jaipur u get such public urinals...bleahz...

shopping... it's good.. lotsa clothes n little knick-knacks.. bote lotsa tops ahah will be so indian when i get back..
n SHAWLS!! hahaha... some r pretty ex..some r good bargains...
bote so many things tt my backpack is jus overflowing now.. terrible.. i dun dare open it anymore.. unless it's trying to stuff somemore things into it. but there's no SPACE!!!! argh...*groanz*...
even my duffle bag is like beginning to fill up... shopping n shopping n shopping.. heheh...
i can set up a booth jus to sell all my stuff n i bet u i'll earn money man. hahahah

cant's stand e auto-rickshaw ppl.. they r so in ur face..luckily i'm not e only guy.. poor mark.. he gets e most stress.. n everyone deals w him regarding money matters. all e haggling for prices of auto-rs...of course when shopping it's diff.. hahahah
even e shopkeepers dun haf e energy to keep up w all e sg-rean girls choosing n bargaining.. esp lz.. she's e best man haha e price jus gets lower n lower..

not so sunny todae.. so quite good.. we walked like 1/2 e way back b4 we got a auto to sit on...
e traffic is more insane than in delhi..cars, bicycles, autos, rickshaws, cabs, ppl, cows, horses, camels, dogs, rats...everything i tell u.. jus come n go @ will... madness.. e only time vehicles adhere to traffic lights is @ those major intersections.. or else sure kena lang-ga by oncoming traffic.. n when e light turns green e vehicles jus zoom off regardless of whether there's anyting in front of them. CRAZY....

everyone tinks we r north koreans. it's irritating whenever there's "aniyo-hasaiyo" being shouted into ur ear all e time... super irritating.. feel like slapping some of them soemtimes. jus shut up n leave us alone. if we wanna go into ur shop n buy sthg we will.. dun come n bother us ler.. bleahz...

gonna haf dinner then hide in room n watch hindi movie hahaha Dhoom.. heard e soundtrack in jaspreet;s car, then nitin's car then umpteenth times in this restaurant last nite... can singalong liao man...

super sleepy... cant tink properly...
n i''m broke. i only had 105 RUPEES @ e end of e day todae. hahaha
must collect back my debts haha n start using the card. hahahha
BROKE....
no more shopping le.. not much left haah jus med books when back in delhi...
going to take 8hr train to Agra tom.. then sleep @ nite. then TAJ MAHAL on tues!!!! then back to delhi e next day.. then then then... HOME!!!!
woopiieee!!!!!! cant wait man!!!!
my nice room n bed n CLEANLINESS!!!! FINALLY!!! bleah...

if u've been to india .. u've been everywhere... everywehre else is better.. definitely..
"it's the pits" here man....quote dr J.... kekekeke...

@ jAipUr

2005-05-28T02:40:00.000-07:00

HOT HOT HOT!!!! room temp is like 35 degrees celcius! came back to hide in aircon hotel room.. too hot to shop outside...

overnight bus was ok.. but v uncomfy position, so cldnt' sleep properly... n e bus driver was speeding (how am i not surprised...) so e whole bus was swerving left n rite... tunn ren n nuoqi got quite abit of motion sickness...me n ching ching jus slept thruout... was qutie cold in e bus.. but cold better then hot.
reached jaipur arnd 630am. then checked in hotel.. then rested/slept till 1130.. went out for lunch.. had pizza hut!! yummy! hehe..
n now back in hotel (arnd 3pm) hiding frmo the heat.. really gives u a headache man. terrible! there are so many shops!!!! the whole streets. actually many streets!!! but jus driving thru them gives u blisters...so might go out again arnd evening time.. bleah...

ok jus got msg tt going out @430 again. heh.. goign to e national handloom shop.. e same chain of shopping complex we went 2 in Jodhpur..e 5-storey mustafa-like shopping building.. good ting abt there is tt it's aircon, AND it's fixed price. so no need for hagging n no worrying abt getting fleeced.. keke... mainly goign there so tt e other 3 (TR, Cx2 n NK) can go shop.. cos 3 of us already been there...

sleepy man.. n hot!!!! shall go back to room to hide n sleep awhile =)
home in 7days!!!! counting down man!!!! kekeke... cant take e every-other-day-travelling.. jus too tiring le... not rested...sleezzz....

Udaipur - takin overniter 2 jaipur

2005-05-27T02:25:00.000-07:00

in udaipur... came here 2 c e lake. but IT DRIED UP!! haven dried up in e past 23 yrs!!!! can u believe it!! wat luck! n no fish n chips in one restaurant cos e lake dried up n there's no fish... HA..
went to the LAke Palace n had seafood platter!! superb!!!! FINALLY seafood in 7weeks!!!!!!! e salmon was fried n delicious!! e thick coffee milkshake is one of e best i've ever tasted!!! n i used 2 super dislike milkshake (except e strawberry one @ Mos burger).. heh... e palace is humongous n super classy.pretty place!! expensive too!!!!

fatigue of travelling gettin 2 me...haven fully recovered from e 8hr - no aircon, no toilet breaks no leg space....phew.. it's w God's grace we all survived everything n are still healthy n safe... praise Him!!
all e experience here is once in a lifetime man!!! i recommend everyone to try it once when u r in ur youth..
keke..
i might come back again.. but go back to HCH...prob not travel arnd anymore...
dun like e haggling of prices... for taxis, auto-rickshaw, for ANYTHING n EVERYthing!!!! jeez... our hairs all turning grey... cant' be bothered 2 bargain now liao... price dun come down i dun buy.. belah..

met up w e other 3 girls here @ Udaipur.. nice hotel.. pretty n big!! n jus by the lake..if only e lake had water...
now sharing room w tunn ren n mark.. lz went over 2 join her 'jie meis'... happy reunion... she's happier now.. but also more antongonistic 2 mark cos all her 'backings' r arnd.. poor guy... feeling e stress of having 2 'protect' 5 girls... it's a guy thing... oh well.. pray hard ..He's been watching over us all the way man!!! =)
lotsa little stuff n all... but can feel His presence =)

sunset @ monsoon palace (on top of a cliff) was simply breathtaking!!! if only......sigh.. heh..

sunrise here is @ 4+ nowadays..n sunset @ 7/8+...

getting more nmore hot..
e overnight train later is air con. better work man.. or will suffocate...
TR wanna go back to room to use toilet.. so gtg....

heat heat.. melting....
feeling bloaty most of e time man.. all tt travelling..
taking antibiotics.. my finger abscess decreased in swelling... =) not so pain anymore...

~ farewell HCH...=(

2005-05-21T02:21:00.000-07:00

e last day.. 20052005..good day.. no?
was super busy e whole day! can't believe e last day @ HCH wld b e xiongest day of all.... teaching session @ 6am, chapel, doctor's morning meeting, photo taking.. running arn collecting e 5 corrected versions by e various 5 departments.. trying 2 locate missing copies...n IT WAS SO HOT!!!! wat practically sweating e whole day.... n i dun sweat tt easily.. bleah.. it's only e beginning of e heat....
in e end, only 2 copies were corrected - paeds (Koshy, Benjamin & Dr Indira fr CMC Vellore) n family med (Lydia & Laji)... e rest...well... eh hem... were deemed to be 'perfect'.... ya...
slack man... n we had to pia @ e last min to make quite alot of changes for e paeds doses.

then rushed over 2 Dr jeff's place 2 upload final input of photos burn e photos into cd..... took up 2 cds.. almost max e 2nd one too.. made copies for each of us n also for Koshy, Kripa, Harry n Dr Sabu... had debrief w Dr Jeff...
hugged e kids for e last time....sigh.. Conner was patting us when he hugged us... sigh...
will miss them lots...

went over to mary's place 4 a while n chatted abit, passed her some of my salvars n also shoes.. hee.. but my bag is still full to e brim!!!! even w all e food gone n all!!!! ARGH~!!!!! JL man... not like i bought super alot of stuff lor!!!! ok mayb i bought abit. but not ALOT leh.... arghhhhhhh...
gave her 1 of e v few keychains we brought along w us.. n also got Sema 2 come over n gave him one... cos they were closest 2 us.... n jaspreet...we gave him b4 he left... mary & sema were quite happy tt we mentioned their names first when we were giving our farewell/thank you speech @ chapel in e morning.. cos they say they dun usu hear their names remembered up in front of everyone... hee... Mark named e Mess members.. heh... n they said it sounded abit like attendance taking in e morning.. kekeke...
will miss them.. pray tt they'll b ok.. not easy for them in a new env too.. being fr e northeast is actually quite a diff part of india.. it's more chinese in many ways...life, looks, culture..n language... there r super alot of dialects man..

mary's going thru a tough time... n we got quite close in e last couple of wks.. tink wat she's going thru now is sthg i mite not b able to take if God were 2 put me thru. i'ld prob go crazy...then again, He puts u thru trials tt u can handle... n i'm thankful 4 my time here...

experienced quite abit of things... tho din really study or brush up clinical skills or did anything work related... bleah...
feel like coming 2 india 2 help e kids here might really be my calling...
have always had tt though @ e back of my mind..to help kids in less developeed area.. but never anything tt specific as to which region or area.. but these 6 wks here opened my eyes to c kids in so many varied situations & environments...in wards, hospitals, good families 2 villages, slums & beggers... everytime a kid comes up 2 me to beg 4 money... i'll cringe...
we were told not to give any money 2 any beggers 2 all. or else e whole clan will descend upon u n devour u ... but i can give 2 1 or 2 no? but how much is enough? mayb for 1 or 2 meals.. but e kid will prob never grow up 2 c adulthood... times lidat i feel totally loss n helpless.. jus looking @ e child staring @ me w hopeful eyes... my heart jus aches like mad n i feel like crying then n there.. each & every time.
now when i see any begger child approachin from far off, i jus shut my eyes tight.. & hope tt he passes by quickly.... sigh...

i digress...
back 2 topic...

went also 2 koshy & lydia's place for a little while 2... felt abit sad saying goodbye 2 them.. left my measuring tape w Koshy cos he was super fascinated n delighted w it.. like it's his new toy... heh... it's a nice tape... =P

been checking e mailbox everyday n i still haven received e package from liting yet!!!! sigh.. wanted to give e crosses 2 each person myself.. now i cant... sigh.. jus hafta leave behind some 'instructions'.. sian man... hope they like it as much as i do...thanks liting!

went 2 buy ice cream for e farewell @ e Mess... went late for dinner 2 cos then e usual (aka "old foggies" =P would b there...) arnd 830+9+pm.. then e Vellore kids wld b gone.. but 2 my horror, they were still there!!!! i was quite irritated actually... cos they dun give me good vibes... n they r rowdy n frankly quite unfriendly... or mayb it's a groupie thing.. i duno... even some of e usual mess ppl start 2 turn up later for dinner jus so as 2 avoid them @ e mess.. then again.. when they r there, there's not much space in it.. so mite as well wait till they r gone first b4 eating...

anyway, they were there.. n they took part in e usual farewell tingy... jus quite diff.. abit draggy n all.. but when everyone was singing e 'Friends r friends forever'... i began 2 tear... sigh... it was jus sad... bleah.... but din cry ler...

dun feel ready 2 leave.. if only i could have stayed longer... going back in e future wld b diff... but He has His plans.. HCH will always have a special place in my heart... e ppl especially... it was a family.. will miss all of them...

din really sleep last nite... slept like 1.5 hr.. cos writing little 'love letters' to koshy, lydia n e Mess members... will miss them all loads... e fun n laughter n e warmth.. n will miss e kiddos too, conner, cosette, cameron, ammlu.. bleah.. tot all of them how to ^5 hahaha.... e rest r tryign to unteach them tt n trying 2 teach ^10 n ^1.. ahh wt nonsense =PppP
din really get good sleep this past week too.. cos lz either talked in her sleep/grinded her teeth/snore.. bleah.. there was 1 nite all 3 were combined! wah.. i was super zonked out n grouchy e next day cos i keep waking up to e teeth grinding.. bleah!!!! terrible....!!!!!!
must be e stress of HCH.. but no stress there wat!! belah... hope touring will b better...

left this morning @ arn 630am... Dr Jeff, Mary n Bina's mom came to send us off... mary will really miss us man... will miss her big hugz!...

slept 1.5 hrs on n off in e taxi on e way to Saharanpur to catch e train 2 Delhi...
then waited abt 1 hr @ e train station.. bag was super heavy!!!! n my back was jus dying.. n my bag was abit off-center too!!! arhg have to repack!!!!! darnED!!!!
mad rush up e train when it came.. cos gotta get onto it b4 it zoomed off in like 3 mins... belah... n had to rush 2 try to find palce 2 put luggage.. MAN!!! e ppl here are fast!!! duno how they do it..

slept on e 3hr train ride... then when we reached New Delhi....
WAH KAO E CROWD!!!! excatly like on tv man!!!! PETRIFYING!!!!! macham no place to squeeze thru one lor!!!! i instinctly stuck my hand out to lz n we held on tightly 2 each other.. n also clinging on to Mark's bag while he bravely plunged himself headlong into e crowd... up e bridge, across it.. to e parking area... n quickly negotiated a taxi price .. n there we were in e taxi.. sweating like crazy.. stuck in a jam rite @ e entrance of e train station... man.. e heat!!!!

now we r @ YMCA... e internet here is cheaper.. haha

saw my hp bill report.. sheesh... my pockets.... i'm getting full thickness burns man...
i'm starting to miss Mess food.. weird huh? after complaining abt it hahaha... oh well.. my mind is playing tricks on me man.. bleah...
shall go now.. have lunch ahahah. haven had breakfast or lunch..it's 3.43pm now.. n lz jus ordered delivery i tink... suppose 2 arrive in 40 mins..

meeting zareema & Kara @ 5pm for debrief. ahah now hafta adjust back 2 reality... sigh...
hahah she has a complex haah i wonder wat.. hmmm.. kekeke...
i wanna go back to HCH leh... nice little cosy place w nice ppl n env. hehe... my tiredness erupting sporadically..
so fast.. 6 wks ago i was in Delhi.. not knowing wat to expect for e next 6 weeks.. now i jus wanna go back to tt 6 wks... heh..

life goes on...

pyrexia...

2005-05-17T04:48:00.000-07:00

gettin hotter here man... sheesh...
n i'm still havin tt low grade fever.. irritating... esp e bland taste in my mouth.. bleah... *yucks*

napped abit b4 lunch while e other 2 finished up w e drug formulary..yup it's done.. out of like a few hundred drugs n prices.. i typed 5.. good hor?.. but then again i'm not in lib most of e time n lz treats it like her baby.. so heh.. 2's enough to do e job...

it's e heat man...more ppl actin weird these days.. mary seems to be sinking into some sorta depression.. she's not saying.. pray tt she'll b ok... even sema is abit sian sian lidat...
stupid fever...wun go away.. taking like 2 panadols each time now.. from 1... sian. i hate takign meds.. belah.. bland..
getting more easily irritated too... so jus keep diam diam.. n jus walk away.. some tings r jus senseless man.. no need to say so much ma... mus comment on every single ting one meh?? some ppl jus wanna make their presense known all e time...dumb...bleah... jus pure PR nonsense..not sincere at all man... sheesh....*grumble*... moody... swinging again... i can feel it... shall keep to myself.. bleah...

becoming complainy man... belah... must find an outlet.. it's getting hot even at nite!
hope i'm not getting TB man!!! i duno if i'm getting night sweats or it's jus e heat at nite!!!!AARRHHHH!!!!!!
gosh.. goin crazy hahahah....

jaspreet: HEY BIG BRO!!! we got ur email.. hehe.. mark n liz say HI!!!!! hang in there ya!! =) take it easy... i tried to reply ur email but then e connection went off.. n e comp din save my mail.. ggrr!!! n i haf time limit left.. so u gotta keep updated here.. kekek

liangying: thanks for e constant reminders n encouragements!! u take care ya! =)

fever...viral most prob...

2005-05-16T08:52:00.000-07:00

fever todae.. woke @11... slept on n off e whole day.. sigh.

wah kao!!!! u guys went ktv AND dim sum withOUt MOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sobz... sian here leh.. sob sob...dun like the bland taste in my mouth.
YUCKS!!!!

alot of 'new' ppl came todae... a paeds registrar from CMC vellore.. n 5 med students also from there.. they dun seem v friendly..but i haven really met them..shall see how tom... miss shweta n spandana tho. heh...
n 3 ppl came from hongkong-> san (miss)- social worker, david-dentist and steven- businessman cum social worker (i tink)...
dr jeff n family came back from delhi todae...w a new white jeep!!! hehe...

bland taste sucks big time.. n e food is not getting any better. bleah... sleepy...
tt's all for now... goin back to sleep again soon..=P
gotta wash alot of clothes n start packing...
n getting ppl to write autographs! kekek...

~hARid wAR~

2005-05-15T06:32:00.000-07:00

jus got back 30mins ago from haridwar n rishikesh...ze Ganges river....
e fire ceremony was CROWDED sia.. n it's not even e peak season...
tis drenched lady (mark's contribution: 'dripping "holy" water from e Ganges') beside me kept bumping into me...disgusting man.... but bo bian.. 'had to' watch e ceremony.. so tahan thru n scrub like mad when i bathed... nothing very spectacular tho.. jus lifting up n down of fire (in a large dish).. n e fire jus climbs higher n higher... but of course it's THE GANGES...so...it's a ONE-in-a-LIFETIME experience... even dr koshy was shocked tt we were goin... he drove thru a 'mob' n was aghast @ e tot of venturing thru it again... ha..

our hotel- Le Grand hotel was good.. cable tv! n air con.. n heater n shower!!!! proper shower mind u.. not trickling water which comes on n off @ will... n nice bed... keke...
all woke up late in e morning...slacked arnd.. watched somemore tv - PRoblem kid 2.. n then went 2 rishikesh 2 a Chotiwala restaurant (named after a person w funny hair...will post e photos up later..).. normal food.. cheesed macaroni.. at last not dal n chapati again. haha.
e scenery was beautiful.. mountains everywhere!! someday i'll go up there to work/build my orphanage. hahaha... still dreaming =P

walked arn n SHOPPED!!!! hahah damn nice!!!! shawls hahah .. now looking out for cloth... n dvds n other things to shop!!!! kekeke
ok. time limit up soon...
getting hotter n hotter ...1 more week @ HCH... this week will b bz bidding farewell, going for 'meals' n all....
currently i haf 1200+ photos... shall cont to take more!!! hehe ... n load them onto a cd =)

auntie likheng -> my sis say u dun understand wat i type huh? ask her to translate! ahah howz e 2 cuties?!?!?! =)
ps: i dun haf ur blogsite add leh!!
carol: yeah. u coming to teach in my orphanage rite?!!?!?! how was niagra falls??? i wanna see photos!!

time alone...

2005-05-11T07:44:00.000-07:00

in e net shop now. alone. wanted to call home. but e phone is engaged.. there's a queue for e phone actually.. it's cheaper to call from the shop. there r like 3 rite outside e hospital compound..
w other 2 went to row boat by this river which has a superb view. but i din go. haha dun feel like rowing boat todae n late le..wun get 2 c much also. jus travel haha =P
gonna watch Finding Neverland later! ahah watched like 1/2 of Proof of Life last nite. then cmi liao so went back to room to KO.. keke...
everyday movie sia!!
long day todae...everytime i intend to slack..which is like e past 1 week.. i end up having long days instead!!! bleah.. not tt i'm doing much lar... haha but still it's tiring.. suppose to go anesthesia start of yest.. but ended up assessing kids from the Anugrah Project..or helping dr Koshy to assess.. e kids r cute..jus tt it takes like 2hrs per kid.. cos first gotta ask detailed history of e kid's perinatal, birth, childhood, immunisation history etc... of course it's in hINDI n i cants understnad a single ting.. so i try to play w e kid...in english..tryin to get e kid to understnad me..ok.. i learnt a FEW words of hindi in e process haha.. but not enough to strike a conversation man.... hindi is actually quite similar to korean/german in some sense..anyway.. ya... n to 'shorten' e time... i try to take e measurements (ALOT AR) while i play w them...
alot of cerebral palsy kids...it's really quite heartwarming n thankful to know tt they r benefiting n improving from all e help tt they r getting..it's really frustrating when e parents dun really care/dun haf enough money to pay altho they care etc etc... dun see such things in sg.. onli see heartless parents who dun tink it's worthwhile to spend all e money.... but here it's diff..

been spending more time w e ppl here... n less time w e other 2.. somehow realise tt i've become attached to this place..e kids... amilu, conner, cosette, cameron... e ppl... meena, kripa, jubin, mary, sema, jaspreet, sameer, bijoy, dr koshy, dr lydia... .. heh.. tink i'm warming up to dr lydia... my first impression of here was like this formidable power woman who takes no nonsense ... she's super powerful n can rem everything!! even the dosages n prices of each indiv drugs!!! power sia!!
n i'm leaving next sat.. sigh... i'll miss the stars damn alot..
saw glow-worms/fireflies these few nites!!! NICE!!!!!

goign to harid-war this weekend... going on sat aft then back on sun nite... heh...
not goign mussoorie anymor ele.. sigh...

i'm definitely coming back to india man!!! go mussoorie, go manali.. come back to herbertpur!!!!
it wld b a diff crowd by tt time. but still... it's a nice env.... e warmth u feel eminating from e ppl here.. .. so diff fr e work env back in sg...

who wanna come back w me?!?!?!?!?!
hahahahah cant believe i'll be having such tots 1 month into being in india... wun haf been saying tt like 2months ago? or 3 years ago? haah i duno..God really has his ways to let one grow =)

went home visits the whoel of yest n at this one place, e scenery was so superb!! mountains all arnd n windy n all.. n superb sky!!! n then it suddenly struck me.. it was e ideal place to build my orphanage!!!! hahaha
which reminds me. i gotta email e german doc who actually already set up an orphange here.. ultimate dream man!!!!
=)
ok.. tim efor dinner then movie!@!!
sms n update me okie?!?!?! EVERYONE!! kekekek =PPP

ps... xiao di i was referring to in my previous post is my yougner bro. TKS!!!! why still no news?!?!?!
HMPH!!

trips??

2005-05-09T06:53:00.000-07:00

wanted to go mussoorie again.. to see the mountains.. but e other 2 wanna go somewhere else.. like harid-war (ha-reed-wa).. but then accomodation n travel will haf to b self-arranged n everyone is feeling lazy hahah..so i seriously dun tink it will materialise... keke...
hope we get to go mussoorie tho...
or mayb i mite jus come back to india jus go there again... n mayb go Manali too... but will hafta arrange w kripa abt tt... heh... all the mountains n all.. mus bring my travel sickness pills tt's all...

er: give mama another big hug for me okie? i sms her but she no reply so i duno if she got it...
xiao di: ur exams over? how did it go? hols now? wat r e plans?
ah yang gor: howz e flying thing going? update!!!
Qi: enjoy ur europe trip ya? shop shop shop!!! haha hope u meet good sales times.. kekeke
Vic: u wan e hindi movies or not???
dz: dun rot lar. go exercise go run hahaha =PpP or write more songs keke
violet: howz e back? update me abt the reports? enjoy urself in UK ya?
eric: heads up.. dun die... kids are cute... =).. show u conner's head bob sometime haha damn cute!!!

it's getting hotter n hotter now.. e aft r disgusting lar.. so hot!!! lucky e water is cooling or else sure peng san one.. bleah...

ok i gotta go.. suppose to go for some medical ethics talk.. haha but we 3 tryign to zao it cos some of the jnr docs not going.. so we tink we no need to go. keke.. but ermz.. haha duno man.. bleah.. there's abit of change in mess food now.. more veg n there was carrot todae!!! nice man!!!
ok i sound deprived...=PPPppPP

now i mus control my sms hahah..my bill is 'astronomical' according to my cousin. haha.. so farni...

shall try to get my hands on more dvds ahha old shows tho.. but still nice =P
slacking n getting fat... kekekeke (",)

black outs!!!!! ggrrr!!!

2005-05-09T06:41:00.000-07:00

tried blogging a couple of times the past week. BUTTT... IT KEPT BACKING OUT!!!!
sheesh!!! i typed super long ones somemore!!!!
gosh.. now all gone!!
shall keep it short n sweet now..
been babysitting abit. heh.. amilu (10 months girl) kept getting myoclonic jerks.. her mom is worried sick... so i try to pop by when i can, jus to play w her n provide some emotional support to ze mom..duno how much i'm helping tho.. all in God's grace ba...
taught cosette e piano too.. after cameron. janet said she was surprised @ how cosette is excited abt 'piano lessons' cos she's usu v shy arn strangers... so seeing cosette sit still for like 1/2hr was amazing. heh.. calling her 'princess' now... so cute... she's talks alot actually..aint as quiet as e first few times we saw her...
conner is so cute!! he's got a head bob!! haha i filmed it down kekek. used up like 1 SD card le..433 photos.. heh.. shall burn it into cd. then i can clear my card..
last week was jus tiring.
still feelin tired todae. so i slept the whole aft. haah so hot!!!
terrible! n blacked out a couple of times somemore so e fan was off!! jl manz!!
gonna go anesthesia a couple of days.. mayb get to do some spinals. heh.. see how..
shall slack...

yest was movie marathon day.. went dehra dun on sat w mary, lz, sameer, paul, bijoy n nitin( e new surgery reg who owns THE SCORPIO!!! - e MVP we travelled in.. haha MVPs are like luxury cars here really..) n chanced upon this dvd shop n i bought like 4 haha (each disc has got 4-5 movies haha shiok.. but old movies. n quite cheap. 690Rs total. tt's like..divide by 25 Rs.. do ur maths =P).. BUT 1 disc is in hindi!! haah hey victor!! tt's for u!!! kekeek..

anyway watched Master n Commander, I-robot and spiderman 2 yest!! ahahah slack man!! din go anywhere yest haha jus watched movies. quite shiok. kekeke...

ok shall quickly post this b4 it blacks out again hahah

SiCk oF e cUrRy n dAL BiGGGGG TimMMEee!!

2005-05-05T04:03:00.000-07:00

slacking alot these few days hahah then again.. have always been slacking =Pp
watched ocean's eleven n twelve again last nite cos Kripa has e dvds... heh fun... went to dr koshy's place to watch.. dr lydia was super tired.. she went to sleep first... hee..
suppose to go wish maRy happy biRtHdAy w strawberry ice cream @ 12 mid-nite. but was late.. tee hee. went casualty (AnE) arn 1230...zombified sia... after e movie.. n super duper not enough sleep... tt place was crowded man!!! mary was jus swamped.. n Shweta (e new intern) wasn't lookin too chirpy either... plus there was a big group of guys outside (quite big sized.. guys lar..tink relatives n frens).. n they din look to friendly.. dr Kosh shoo-ed me back jus in case unfriendly events broke out.. e campus security guard stationed himself outside.. jus in case i tink.. heh...

starting 2 miss home...

2005-05-01T01:11:00.000-07:00

yup..3 weeks le.. my threshold le.. starting to miss home... sigh.. esp home food!!!! having curry here every meal is getting to me.. dal, potato..chicken.. onli TWO veg dishes a week.. n same veg.. n not say v nice... last week the cook changed to e aunty.. was nicer food. n had FISH!!! my first seafood ever since i stepped onto indian soil!! keke. not so oily too.. i miss prawns man.. n i miss my ban mian.. n mother's bak ku teh.. n po piah.. bleah.. =((((
then this week the uncle is back. n the OIL is back.. n the same stuff is back.. sigh...sian.. but sunday's are 'special' days.. like e food is ABIT diff.. todae there was 'chicken rice'.. it's jus chicken in rice. not e zhen zhong chicken rice man.. n no veg n no fruits n no soup n ... bleah..

quite nice n slack days these past few days.. tho abit sad.. cos jaspreet left yest morning.. me n lizhen climbed out of bed @ 530am jus to send him off @6... he's like a big bro to us this past 3 weeks... tink i'm e closest to him cos i went surgery posting first then mark went, so both of us had a lot of fun.. lz jus know him thru us n he brought us out to some nice places nearby... his wife is giving birth soon... first kid sia!!! must be damn cute one haha.. i wanna see!!!!! n play w e kid!!! kekek.. anyway ya.. 2 new interns r coming todae. n a new surg registrar is coming too..

3 of us chatted abit these 2 days... heh.. jus sit arn , slack n talk crap.. hehe.. in the mess, when we r too lazy to move after meals.., under e stars n chilly wind... tink my first impression of ppl can b quite accurate sometimes hahah... close eyes to certain things lor.. easier to get by life..

starting to get use 2 e life here. it's really a good get away.. but whether i can b part of it is another matter. now i'm jus here as a student.. so everything is more relaxing n ppl view us differently.. if i really wanna work here one day.. i wonder wat it'ld b like... looking @ e work environment here.. it's like a haven.. e ppl r v warm, nice n real.. n v encouraging.. v diff fr back home... e attitude, behaviour n all... things are not as harsh here.. everyone works hard, enjoy everyone else's company n haf fun tog.. guess e closeness comes along w being in a small community... dun mind coming here n work for a couple of years.. if i get e chance..
as long as there's a place in e heart, there'll b a place for everything n anything...

i'm here for a couple of reasons..n i'm thankful for them.. sometimes it's not easy to haf e guts to stare it rite in e face n take it head on.. but tt's y i'm here.. with time to myself, n e stars n e sky blanketin me.. it's easier in many ways..
gotta let go of yesterday to look forward to tomorrow...

hey er, ask father to look up a place called Manali..it's somewhere north india, near e mountains.. i saw photos of e place n it's damn nice!!! i wanna go there man!!!! but it's too far from here.. bleah...

miss home food... sian man... everything is startin to taste bland here.. curry curry curry.. i wan my prawns... sigh sigh... duno wat i'm gonna do next week.. mayb i'll go play w the kids in the field... or go to e center where all e special needs kids.. got alot of syndromes etc.. heh...

k lar.. gonna play keyboard later again cos paul on call todae hahah.
okie... goin going.. bleah. buy pepsi drink then sleep a while... heh..
miss home...

~LaLALaAAaaaa~~~~~~

2005-04-26T07:09:00.000-07:00

yeah~!!! i'm officially recovered! fast sia!!! hahah... still abit crampish lar.. but definitely well ler.. u noe why? bcos i feel damn HUNGRY all the time!! haahaha...

suppose to go to this community clinic..@ BaJaiBah..(i tink tt's how it's spelt)... someone fr e hospital will go once a week.. it's even more rural n all the ppl who go, esp kids, have severe malnutrition... suppose to b moi turnz tis week... but cos down liao.. so lz took over.. quite happening todae sia.. 4 ppl went..lz, 2 interns n e jnr doc - paul. i'll go next week!!!! i tink w Sema (pronounced as Sam-ma) another family med registrar..same as Mary...

the OPD was less busy todae.. Dr Jeff asked me if we wanted to go along w his family to Harid-War...this pilgramage place @ e start of e Ganges.. suppose to b the cleanest part of the Ganges.. cos according to mArKy.. the lower part Varanasi where lotsa ppl bathe in is the most toxic.. keke...toxic... gross lar..
BUT then we din go in e end.. cos sms-d LZ.. n she had NO reception.. n she definitely wun b back @ 4 when dr Jeff n his family leaves.. so there went our overnight trip... so sad.. too bad... =Pp

then Jaspreet asked us if we wanted to go dehra dun w him, sema n sameer (sa-meeeerrr).. but then lz not back too.. n mary was too tired to cover sema, who was covering for paul cos it is paul's call todae.. so din go lor..

n e trip w sam n paul n mary which was suppose to b yest, got postponed todae cos mary was on call yest... which is postponed yet again cos paul on call todae... hahah

so 3 THREE trips *poof* down e drain... so sad!! then we wanted to go sema's room to watch School of Rock. cos he got it in his laptop.. BUT!!!! we realised tt they went dehra dun in e end!!!!! AARRRHHH!!! so sad!!! we coudln't go anyway.. no place in jaspreet's car liao le.. bleah.. =(
oh jaspreet washed his car todae! haha.. his last week here liao.. on the 30th april he'll b heading home cos his 2 months of surgical training wld b over... we'll all miss him man.. he's damn funny.. bo dua bo sui one hahah jus dare dare do everything like trying to borrow the official vehicle to drive all of us to dehra dun cos it's bigger (of coruse he wasn't allowed to..), e way he n his wife got their driving license!! tt's one of the best man!! ( jus walked into the office n haf tea w the head of the registry).. viewing every abdomen as a case to operate on (like all surgeons.. haha), playing w the PA system @ opd... oh my gosh!! i sound like i'm paying a tribute to him!! hahaha... but he's damn farni lar seriously.. n he n sema taught mark how to diagnose a gay man..w all the minor n major criterias hahaha.. can roll on e ground n laugh until tummyache..

Dr Laji's wife - Dr Meena jus gave birth todae @ 4.15pm to a healthy baby boy! second child! their eldest-David (3yo) is still in oblivion... not knowing tt his reign of tyranny is over... kekek..

e kids here are all v cute... actually kids are all damn cute. haha

hope sema comes back soon man!! we wanna watch movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bleagh...

oh n i'm DEFINITELY going mussoorie AGAIN!!! hahah must visit the mountains n bid my farewell...

duno why keep wakin up at nite here.. haven had a proper nite's sleep since i reached india.. jus e oppo fr lz.. everytime i wake up she'll be talking ... dun tink is to me.. haha in her dreams.. sometimes i'll even talk to her.. jus for the fun of it hahah..
ok.. 1/2 hr up.
goign for dinner.. 8pm now..wwhheee!! we had FISH yest!!! FISH!!! finally seafood after like 2.5 weeks!! hahaha
ok gone. *hugz*

~Mussoorie tRip~ =)...but.... dOwN...siGhZzz....

2005-04-25T05:27:00.000-07:00

sigh.. down.. w tummyache.. everything tastes bland bland bland..actually i dun even feel like eating... bleah..

went to Mussoorie on sat..set off at arn 445pm.. stopped for a while @ Dehra Dun - a big town... n had coffee!!! 1st coffee since arrivingin in India! the north indians drink tea, not coffee.. n the south drink coffee.. i haf no inkling why is tt.... had caramel ice blended.. shiok!! n onli cost 38 Rupees... which is like Sg$1.2.. keke...e shop was quite nice too haha like coffeebean in Sg.. rare sight here when everything is jus dusty n dirty... getting used to it ... my room is perpetually dusty...
there was a traffic jam @ DD cos there was some big fancy procession.. n the 2 Gurus sitting high up on their horse-drawn carraiges were SLEEPING!!!! best! esp when e procession was like for them?!?! jam lor.. jam..

reached Mussoorie abt 8pm... took abt 3 hrs to go there... the journey up the mountain was TORTOUS... luckily i downed TWO tablets b4 tt.. lotsa ppl became nauseas..Dr bena had to stop the van to throw up... jus in time!... there were 10 of us : 8 females - Me, Lz, Mary, Jubin, Kripa, Bena, Chai-yah and Vandana & 2 males- Mark n Bijoy... heh... we all squeezed into this minivan.. hahaha...

sunset on the way as we travelled up was beautiful.. would haf been better if the ride wasn't so bumpy n windy.. heh.. but compromise lar... the city lights down below as we gained height, grew more n more... like a mass of twinkling stars albeit on the ground.. they were pretty but i couldn't get them on camera.. sadly...

walked abt 45mins b4 we reached The Four Seasons restaurant where we met Dr Koshy n Dr Lydia who were there on a weekend retreat... quite fun =) the food was SUMPTIOUS!!!!!!! yum yum yum!!! we each ordered a different dish n jus passed the food around... n it only cost 100/- Rs EACH!!! then had HOT coffee!!! n then ice cream!!! hee hee... food fest man!!!

after dinner ~10+pm... we started heading for Landour Community Hospital - a Hillstation, where we were to spend the nite in a dormitory.. the walk up was cooling and slow..was quite nice... finally reached the hospital @1130!!! hahaha
all of us were so tired!! took turns to use the 2 toilets to wash up... Kripa jus konked out once she touched her bed.. din even wash up hee hee... Jubin also KO fast...
e rest followed quite soon. haha me n mark still managed to play 2 rounds of dai di n 2 rounds of bridge b4 KO-ing... hahah

woke up @5am then prepared for the morning climb to view the HIMALAYAs...
finally..everyone was ready @645 n we set off! e climb up was abit like trekking.. shiok!! but onli for like the beginning 1/2 of the climb.. after tt we hit well-paved roads..which was good for most of us hahah... Vandana was quite taxed n she din haf any walking/sports shoes! but we took it slow n easy.. Bijoy was like sheep-herder haha waiting for everyone... Bena lead the way.. kRipa puffed on her rotahaler so she pulled thru =)

the scenery got better & better as we climbed higher n higher.. tink father & mother would love it... it's ridges after ridges of mountains skirted w terrace plantations... brEatHtaKing!!!!!!!!
we intruded into a private property n scuttled 'quickly' (took a few photos along the way.. tee hee) to this nice patch of grassy land jus @ the edge of a cliff... jus like in My Sassy Girl! (9am) the view from there is indescribable!!! It's these moments tt make one marvel at God's ability to create... the land, the sky, the mountains, the clouds, the flowers and birds... I was quite stunned into silence... even switzerland didin have this effect on me... mayb it was bcos i was 7,500feet in the air with the himalayas surrounding me, enclosing me in His love and warmth... i din feel cold at all! (ok i was in 5 layers =Pp but i'm prepared ya!! experienced k! =P )

was simply amazing!! i must go again before we leave this place...
we sat arnd, took MANY photos, sang some songs of praise, read a bible verse n prayed.
i talked to Him...twas peaceful...let go of quite afew things n made a few resolutions.. jus me n my Father (",)

my tummyache began on the way back.. it was jus a minor epigastric cramp to begin w...
Bijoy tricked some of us into taking a 'shortcut'..turned out to b a more time consuming, tension building, almost nerve wrecking, treacherous route!!!!!! mark was "why are we doing this to ourselves?!??!" hahah.. but we'll rem it for life man.. haahha my quadriceps were so tired after tt!!!

reached a small shop for breakfast...had egg maggi =) hot n nice =) ideal for the weary n hungry... keke... slacked arnd for a while.. got super tired haha from the climb, little sleep... tummyache got worse.... began to churn..

when finally reached back the hospital to get our belongings... my tummy was rioting... i jus curled into a fetal position rite @ e entrance for like 15mins.. @1 time the spasm got so painful i was tearing... they almost gave me IM buscopan (injxn)!! i was nonononono... jus gimme tablets.. took n curled somemore.. after awhile the spasms subsided... then i was jus in a blur..everything seemed distant n occuring in slow motion... jus felt weak.. bleah..
they decided to ship me back to HCH.. called a cab...Mary came along w us cos she wanted to drop off @ DD to meet a friend.. Mark was simply elated n overjoyed tt he din have to go on a 5 hr shopping spree w the girls.. Bijoy was disappointed tt Mark ditched him n left him alone.. the rest went off to shop.. LZ din wanna go along w them altho she wanted to shop.. so she went back w us.. somehow she felt abit sick too all of a sudden... hmm wonder why...

left @ 1230, reached back @ 230pm.. the driver is crazy i tell u!! MAD!!! he jus sped down the mountains.. the way he brashly navigated the numerous turns.. i had lotsa bruises on my head!!! i tink mark too! cos we sat@ the sides... my tummy got so bad i couldnt differentiate the gastritic pain from nauseating churning... jeezz~!~!!! almost dieded then n there.. was so super duper happy n relieved when we reached back 'home'.. jus went to my room, changed out n crashed onto my bed for 3 hrs..

arn evening e 2 got Dr Jeff to come arnd to check on me.. He diagnosed colitis... keke..
din eat anything for lunch n dinner.. had to drink 1L of ORS (oral rehydration salt).. was ordered to.. or else i wun take.. okie lar..sweet plus salty then it became bitter! yucks..

better this morning.still crampy..tink gotta start taking antibiotics liao.. jus in case is amoebiasis or giardia...
tried to eat abit todae.. like one handful of rice. for lunch.
damn yucky.
n bland.
bleah.
okie...
slept 2hrs in the afternoon.. cldn't take it liao. then met e 2 n came here lor.
bleah...mus finish another litre of water b4 i sleep tonite. dehydrated.. lips perpetually dry..
okie time's up haha soon...
tt's my weekend...
good n bad.. im' definitely going back to see my mountains again!!! n dream of Won bin waitin there for me haha. n do shopping!!! keke.

Mr Song Kian Hong - my cousin cum shopping pal cum kTv kaki!!!

2005-04-23T00:58:00.000-07:00

hahah happy?!?! haah ur photo is in the blog lor!! aahaha thanks to dz! =) the rest dun even haf photos in okie? haha beside the big background of my boyfriend!! hahah i wish man... =PpP

hahah okie... really gtg now. =P hungry.. n lots to do. the afternoon heat is getting abit stifling ...

oh huihua, tt's not my mom.. keke...tt's my Queen/aka BOSS/aka hUggaBle hUgZ!!!

$$$$$$EXPENSIVE SIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! $$$$$$$$$

2005-04-23T00:41:00.000-07:00

jus found out from xuan tt my phone bill is like SKY HIGH!!! i;m DEAD !!!! sheesh!!! stupid stupid stupid... so irritating!! tt's it.. no more calls. no more sms. 4mins is $14!!!! MAD LER!! 1 call from home is like 15-20 mins lor!! n had a couple of calls.. n called po po too! aaAAAAGHHHHHHHH.... chum lar chum!!!
e rates wasn't suppose to be so ex wat! suppose to be local rates here n the rates here are like damn cheap lar.. sms is Rs1 per sms.. n 2-3Rs per min phone call.. wah liew...all the stupid stupid conversion n extra charges.. arhg!!!! ARGH ARHG ARGH!!

n i found scratches on my camera!!!!! WAH LIEW!!! DAMN SADDENING!!! sigh... sian lar... macham like holding a funeral for my camera... damn SAD!

sian sian sian.

surgery days on wed n fri were quite fun. considered short days liao. cos wed ended at 6pm. yest ended @ 3pm. they said can last until midnight... mayb cos this week Dr Sabu (paeds surgeon) aint arnd. tt's y. oh well he's back tom. means i mite do surg again.. ekkeek...

goign to Musoorie @ 3pm w like 5-6 other docs.. a whole biog grp. it's a very nice place.. tt's my impression from the photos. can see the himalayas from there! haha i wanna see!!n cold too1!! haha good!!! now getting hotter here liao. bleah...

tummy still feeling weird.. goign for lunch now. then bathe then pack. having weird dreams these few nites. n not enough sleep leh. sigh. din really go lie under the stars tho they are v nice @ nite.. bleah...

feel like drawing back inside again.. surround myself w kids... sigh. okie.
no more calls. no more sms. cut off from the world.

Miss Teng sung shiuan. update me okie? kcy is not giving me anything hahah howz the flight ting going for both of u?
mother feeling better not? n tell munyi jie to jus sms me lar. cos calling is sper duper ex... sigh. i tink i haf to pay like a few hundred bucks le..sian ler...

hug joan okie? give her nose rub for me! hee

gtg for lunch now.. then go off to coldness!!! mayb i can stay there n dun go back! haah... nah... i miss my bed...n prawns. the ppl here have NO concept of seafood!!!! MADNESS!!!
.

DiArAheA =( siGhZzzz

2005-04-23T00:25:00.000-07:00

went on a 'food trip' on thurs w the surgery trainees/registrars (dr jaspreet n dr sema)..got mark n lz to come along too.. squeezed into Jaspreet's car... quite nice. ate hot n spicy indian food which makes ur mouth and tummy explodes.. literally.. had 4 such dishes (@ diff shops) b4 ending w 'indian ice cream' (some weird ice cream which has a funny taste...with white noodles on it... mayb my taste buds r hypersensitive...but taste very weird )..

diarrhea-ed like 5 times yest,...blhea.. ok lar.. jus tt it was surgery day, so i had to keep changing FAST n walk FAST from OT to room n back again... rather use room toilet... the OT one looked ancient.. n no one used it..as far as i noe.. tho it's cleann....

went out again last evening.. ate 1 more dish.. Gold-sthg.. superb! hafta eat it fast! cos there's some spicy sour liquid inside this egg-shaped crust-like fried flour tingy... ate 2 b4 my tummy started to act up..the rest had like 5... Kripa n Juben came along too.. then we went to this Dam which separates 2 states of india. was a v beautiful scenic spot. but photography was not allowed. irritating. my hands were damn itchy ler.. jaspreet says it's to protect the countries from pakistanis. duhz..politics n all.. dumb dumb.. such a pretty sunset n i couldn't get a shot.

better todae. but still diarrhead 2x. took med. better lar... went to get med for my rash.. cos getting bad to worse. had to go make a out-patient card jus to buy the med... now i haf a file here in India.. power sia... haha..
i got one like at SGH, one at TTSH now one here n INDIA HCH.. haha mad. but i no need to queue. hahah everything chop chop, even payment.. wat xibin lao shi said jus keeps ringing in my head - mus learn to b a ptnt b4 anything else.... so apt... bleah.. but v itchy lar. n i tink the rash is spreading. bleah..

pAsSeD!!!!!

2005-04-19T05:40:00.000-07:00

yeah!!!! we all passed patho!!! wwhheee!!! n there's going to b a 'party' hahah mayb not tho.. aiyah, they come up w all sorta reasons to have a party. heh..

LZ was down yest w tummyache -> 'almost GE' kekeke.. poor feeding n all.. luckily dr bena came over n made sure she ate sthg.. hee. she's back todae!!! yippie!!! she v noisy now ahah.. back liao ma..yest slept whole day.. now jing shen bao man! hahah
anyway she's like genius for patho!! haha eh GENIUS!!! u know who u r, wat did u get ar? dun later get over taken. kekeke...

super sleepy todae.. duno why, slept like 7 hrs leh.. which is alot compared to e sleep i'm getting since i came over india.. bleah.. Dr Koshy George = Dr Koshy, e paeds doc i'm shadowing is super duper zai zai!!! he can jus go AnE , look @ a 1-hr old baby for like 1-2 mins, come up w a full diagnosis AND history even without talking to the parents yet. he jus looked at the baby, open up the clothes, then ask me to look carefully n asked me for the diagnosis. i onli came up w respi distress! was meconium aspiration syndrome. zai man.. he's in the list of my top 3 OU XIANG!!!! soon to be no.1... prof yap mite have to share her spot w someone else liao.. keke..
then there were 3 other kids at casualty (AnE) yest, he go in, ACUTE GE/sepsis/severe dehydration/acute renal failure.. all in 1 kid lor!!! another had asthma exacerbation, another had GE/dehydration too.
i'm jus super awed by him... mus study harder!!! if i can absorb like even 1/4 of his power in these few weeks, i'll be damn happy N thankful!!

todae dr Jeff asked abt wat my parents tot when they knew i was coming to india.... heh .. htye were abit surprised and worried... but i guess this is to pave the way for my ultimate goal hahah.... my orphanage!!!! XUAN!!! got the contacts yet?!??!

then he also asked if i would ever consider coming to such an institution to work in the future... OF COURSE man!!! this is wat i'm made for!!! but first i must become powerful.. like 1/4 of Dr KOshy n 1/5 of prof yap... then i'm readyy.. keke..

really feel myself getting fatter man.. SIAN.... the food ler... i shant eat so much le.

keep feeding sweets/chewy bars to the kids (esp Conner - 18 mths!!! super cute!!! like Charyne when she was a toddler..bottomless pit...=P ) oh Dr Jeff has 3 kids: Cameron - 5yrs,. Corsette - 4yrs and Conner. think JAnet (wife) is abit exasperated w me.. tee hee.... everytime i see them.. which is like everyday, i give them sthg new from my collection hahahah..which is quite alot.. trust me hahah...(" what am i going to do w the students???" she said the other day.... hee) tahan for 4 more weeks. then we are out of here... hee.. her kids are so so so so CUTE!!!! i took quite a few pics of them haha upload next time...

There's Dr Laji's 3yo son - David... i gave him the toytrain which i won at a lucky draw ( on sat - the Food Mela -> a funfair ting held by the youth fellowship here to raise funds.) he was over the moon hahaha...won a bottle of hair oil too!! quite lucky both times. haha MArk tried once btu din get anythign.. tink LZ tried too..

went for service on sunday. 10am.. so could wake up later! yeah! was in HINDI! onli 3 sentences in eng..so we got quite sleepy.. but there was a 1yo kid in front of me haha so i was playing w him.. haha gave him sweets too ahah.. yah i'm the sweet person haha cool rite? let him play w my Elmo n teddy bear bookmark.. he was v happy n occupied thruout the service haha...=)
gotta wash my elmo.. or else will become fomite hahah
the drummer was super zai.! played western drums AND the indian bongos...oh oh!! the guitarist is zai zai man!! they dun wait for the musicians to intro b4 they sing then the guitarist had to catch the keys AND chords impromptu!! super zai zai!! hrhe... but they have no sense of rhythm and timing! ahhaha
played keyboard during fellowship at 6pm.most of the songs i duno one haha n got impromptu songs also haha n some no chords ... tried to catch.. abt rusty haha n the keyboard is super old hahaha n dusty! haha.. adapt lor ahah trying to make frens w the keyboard haha..

anyway,.so far so good.
Lena n Liang Ying got ur sms.. thanks sis! =)
uncle, jia you ok? moral support!
eric, the ortho guy not here le. some of the docs asked abt u guys.. spread the word k?
yy, u got e phone no.? rem to sms me the book title k? take care n jia you!!
xiao di, *hugs* prac piano!!!!
xuan, *hugz*.. rem to hug mother, father, yi ma, po po, minqi, joan n biggy hug for me hahah
minqi, jia you! all the best for ur papers... eat more ler! dun shrink till u get blown away by the wind when i come back... ahha eh no fair leh!! u losing weight constantly n i'm gaininng?!?!?!?! GGRRRRRRR!!!

hahah.. okie. going to bathe then dinner... mayb i shld go read abit...hahah power up!
oh ya, suppose to do surgery is week. but KOshy said - suURGery?? it's onli dressings after dressins... go on surgery days can liao lar (wed n fri) hahah so been following Koshy arnd!!! hee... not tt i mind... haah mayb i shld jus do paeds thruout haha so many syndromic kids here!!!! hehehe..

i dreamt of yyxz last nite! haha duno why.. ahha dreamt tt we jus impromptu catch chords for thisdamn nice new song which i duno wat it is hahaha... but it was fun !! haha...

haha okie my hr is up... happy readin my digest!

HAhAHA!!!

2005-04-15T06:17:00.000-07:00

guess wat! blogging is so much faster then sending mail!!! so i'm going to jus blog all the way hahah.. n to tink i was super against blogging haha.. okie lar. good for travelling.. but not good for using it as a diary cos ppl are not meant to read other ppls' diaries..
ok i digress...

anyway.. HCH - Herbertpur Christian Hospital
tink u can find it online..try. i'm not sure.
it's under EHA (emmanual hospital association) organisation (NGO)

xuan : email ah yi n munyi jie e add can? n cousins. n yyxz... okie.. everyone.. tell ah yang i cant email him. dun fly too much. conc!!
xiao di: dun play too much ar. study hard! n practise ur piano!!
sherry: help me say harlo to e kids. hee... *pOwEr hUgZ*
yyxz: there's keyboard here! ahha but super small n old pattern one haha. n violin n guitar hahah but v dusty. the acoustics in the place where the devotion is held is damn power. no need power n no echo. n e ppl CAN sing. tho slow.. haha..i come back play indian music liao haha b prepared.

going for e bbq soon. it's 6.55 now. 5 more mins b4 my time is up. bbq @ 730.

dAy 4 - @HCH - pAedS

2005-04-15T05:38:00.000-07:00

heh.. todae is day 4 at HCH.
reached here on the 12th aPriL. took the 6.55am train n reached @ 1pm. slept mostly thru the trip..n a good ting too!! cos i was facing oppo e direction of motion 3/4 of e way. would haf been puking my guts out otherwise. but cinnarizine always does the trick. at least thus far.

OHhh!!! er jie!! ttc!! Thai Airways serve SUPERB food. they serve juicy prawns as thick as ur thumb n they are fresh n the sauce is delicious. jus tinkin of them makes me feel hungry =P

tink i'm getting fat from all the 'RiCh' foOdddddd here... it's curry everyday! EVERY MEAL!! veg curry, chicken curry, kidney beans curry, red bean curry, curry curry curry.. n carbo... roti, chapati, rice, dull ( i duno how to spell it but it sounds like tt), nun (another unspellable word)...u get the idea... jus FATS N CARBO!!!
n we are going for a BBQ later.. it's a non-bbq BBQ.. cos the chicken wings are being fried now by the cook instead of being BBQ'd later.. haha dun ask me why..

anyway HCH is a small hospital providing primary care to the community here. it's 1.5hrs from Dehra Dun...which is 6hrs train ride from New Delhi...
there are abt 100 beds in the hospital. the clinics (called OPD here..) are crazy. the hospital itself n accomodation - apartments, hostel are all within e same compound.. n there are security guards guarding the place at nite.. kekeke.. they wear this camouflage jacket ting n jus pop out from nowhere n scared e hell out of me!! hahah..

here's a rough outline of my day:
6.30am: wake up, wait to use toilet...
7.10am: breakfast
8.00am: devotion (short service)
8.30am: (or watever time devotion ends) Ward Rounds (all arn e hospital)
10.30 - 11.00am: OPD
2.30-3.00pm: Lunch
OPD after tt or... hahaha
7.00pm-9.00pm: Dinner

went out w some for the jnr docs on wed - Mary, Sam n Paul..exciting sia!! took rickshaw, (squeezed on it!!), auto rickshaw and bus.. haha hahahahha... super duper dusty... crossed a state from dehra dun to Ponta.. me n lizhen went w them cos mArk went to ROW boat withOUT US!!!!! slacker!!!
anway, we left the compound at arnd 5+pm n reached back arn 9pm. super duper dark!! cos they dun haf streetlamps... i dun even noe wat i was stepping on n i tried not to tink abt it.
e Night sky is SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER NICE!!!!!! no lights to disrupt the splendid view!!! wwhhheee!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha

quite cold at nite. i keep waking up becos it's too cold.. to turn off the fan..
lalala... this internet shop jus outside the compound has damn slow connection..sheesh..but better then nothign i guess...

following Dr Koshy C. George is the paediatrician i'm tagging along these few days. he's damn zai! n he looks like Raj! hahaha. he's super funny and smiley ( most ppl here are NOT smiley.. cos of e conservative culture)

getting used to the punjabi 3-piece suit...dupata (shawl), Salwar (salvar - long top) n kemes (loose baggy pants).... n i tink i'm geting fat.. hahah cos i cant gauge in these pants!!!! no wonder risk of heart attacks n hypertension are higher in Indians.. ooppss sorry.. but it's true leh.. even the docs here say so... cos of the diet..
then again.. those v poor ppl are super thin.. n there are ALOT of kids w Protein/Energy Malnutrition (PEM) n there are alot of syndromes.. which i've never heard of n the book is too thick for my small brain to absorb. haha
e other 2 r having fun in their departments. (lizhen in OnG n mark in Ortho... n there's a guy - Dr Tim Puckett from US who's here for abt 1 mth to spread his knowledge to the ortho ppl here.
they did a L5 nerve root block todae... n NO ONE has ever done it b4.. not even Dr Tim.. haha.. confirm not allowed in Sg one..get sued like crazy..)

e tea here is nice. super sweet hahah but okie lar.v dry tho.. using up half my moisturiser le.. n i onli brought ONE bottle. jeez...

ok gtg..1hr gonna b up..
results out on mon.. keke.. exciting sia..

2005-04-10T09:37:00.000-07:00

That was the plane you sat on!

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Family photo

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The 2 sisters

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Photo with Donkey

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Photo with Her Majesty

2005-04-10T09:32:00.000-07:00

They came to send you off. =)

2005-04-10T09:31:00.000-07:00

Yet another pose from the gang!

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The KTV gang!

whee!

2005-04-03T07:35:00.000-07:00

wwwwhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!